Just a thought I had

So I was sitting in church today, and was kind of having a rough time today. It just wasn't a good day, things weren't going well, plus I'm really stressing about the mission thing. I feel that its the right thing to do, but I'm just being stupid, lets leave it at that. So I was sitting in sacrament meeting and sitting there in the semi-quietness and was thinking, "What is wrong with me. I'm asking for (whatever I'm asking for in my prayers, its personal, of course), why isn't He just giving it to me." And I thought back on this movie I watched the other day, its called Evan Almighty. Its about a guy that was a news anchor in Buffalo, NY, but moved to Washington D.C. to pursue a career in politics. So his campaign slogan is "We can change the World." So one night after his wife goes to sleep, he knees down to pray, and in the end he asks God to help him change the world. So as the story goes on, God asks him to build an ark, and through the story he essentially becomes Noah. And his wife and kids just don't understand whats going on. And it gets so out of hand that his wife leaves him. And as she and the kids are sitting in a restaurant the kids go off to the bathroom and she calls the waiter over to refill her basket for more fries and chicken tenders, and somehow they get on the subject of her husband, how things are going wrong. And the waiter is actually the man who plays God in this movie. But, of course, she doesn't know that. So she is sitting there asking advice on what to do. And God (Samuel L. Jackson) says, "When we ask for the ability to love one another, does God give us the feelings of love, or the opportunities to love other. Or when we ask for courage, does God give us courage, or opportunities to be courageous?" So the story goes on from there, its a good movie, rent it. But as I was looking back on all the things pushing against me to not go on a mission, I ask for strength to get through the day, and just plain strength to get through the trials that I face. But as I thought about that line in the movie, it just hit me in sacrament meeting. And Heavenly Father has been answering my prayers, just not in the way I was expecting it. God wasn't giving me strength, but he was giving me trials to develope strength.

So that was my epiphany for the day. I have been having a lot of those lately. I hope whoever reads this, will rent that movie, it is really good, and really funny. Have a great week!